Where Has Time Gone?

I use to spend time looking in the mirror. I use to stand for 10 or 15 minutes brushing my long blond hair and applying a small amount of makeup. I even use to stand in front of the mirror naked and think "Not too bad!" Now, I was never a super model or a sexy bomb shell....I was just right. I had always wished I had bigger boobs and maybe a little taller but I really never complained. I liked the way I looked and was pretty confident.

Well, time has passed. Those days of looking in the mirror, and liking it, are long gone. The mirror is my enemy. I hate that thing on the bathroom wall! I hate that the mirror catches this old lady stepping out of the tub NAKED! "Oh Lord!" is all I can manage to say followed by a small scream! How did I get this way?

I always wanted bigger boobs, when I was younger...well, now I have them! Of course they hang down to near my belly button and I HATE them..sure wish I had smaller boobs. I am never satisfied with my hair. I always have a bad hair day! I sure wish I had that long blond hair that I use to spend hours brushing!

When I was younger I use to use a little makeup, just for color and a glow. Nowdays it would take a quart to cover this face of mine! I don't use much makeup as it gets down into the wrinkles and looks terrible!

And the naked part? All I can say is "OH LORD!" followed by a scream! I use to have a waist, no rolls, no hangin belly, no saggin boobs and no cottage cheese on my legs! Why can't that dang bathroom mirror be a fun house mirror and show me all stretched out and tall and skinny?

I guess I am just down in the dumps thinking about getting older. Thinking that I hate my face, my hair and my body! The confidence is gone! Sometimes depression sets in. There is a solution...DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! I can't turn back the ageing process but I can do something about the hair and body. I just think God that my family and husband love me just the way I am. I just have to learn to love myself.

Well, that is the wardens thoughts for today...well, everyday I think those same thoughts. Perhaps Springtime will lift me from this slump and make me more determined to make a change....my family and myself will just have to deal with the way I am for now.

Check back again and I will let ya know ....the thoughts of a family warden.